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As I lay on the floor with my love Sequoia keeping me warm this morning, my mind is flooded with thoughts of growing up. Ha!  I feel like I never really grew up.  I've been think about guava's lately.  Guava's remind me of ditching school to go up to Iao Valley to climb the waterfalls and pick guava's.  That smell always makes me smile :)  Ha, Ha..my mom always knew when I had ditched school because she could smell the guava's on me, or maybe she could just see it my face, I'm a TERRIBLE liar! I felt so free and fast and indestructible!  The funny thing is, I still do.  I never really grew up.  Have you ever seen the movie Big, with Tom Hanks?  That's me!  I swear, there are so many moments throughout my day that I make these adult decisions and do adult things and then I think "holy shit, don't they know who I am?" I mean really I'm just a kid! Okay, granted I AM turning 30 in July.  People come to me on a regular basis asking me important things.."ummm, yes", I say and in my mind I think "sure, I don't give a shit, why are you even asking ME?" This is why I like to lay on the floor with Sequoia.  I tell him everything.  I cry to him all the time, I tell him I'm scared, I don't understand, I hike really slow etc.  He doesn't care!  He thinks I'm sooo cool, smart, pretty..I think he thinks I'm an adult. He keeps me grounded and by the way, he does the most amazing downward dog!  He loves to stretch in the sun and I love to watch.  He inspires my practice.   I am so thankful for what I have in my life.  I cant even believe how blessed I am! My friends and family are amazing.  Not to mention that I have a boyfriend who actually enjoys playing Scrabble with me! I started a new journey yesterday.  I had my first day of my yoga teacher training with the most amazing little big group.  This is just one more thing to be thankful for.   Maybe I'll grow up :)